Psalm 27:4 "One thing have I desired; that will I seek after. That I may dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life."

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I CAN Do It All!

As I was scurrying through life yesterday doing laundry, making bread, cutting a pile of old t-shirts into rags (they had cluttered my bedroom and then my laundry room long enough!), and thinking about the school I needed to do with Kurt and things I needed to check for Kristen, and the 1st quarter grades I needed to get together, I realized that I had bought a lie.

The lie that “you can have it all” really is a lie.  And honestly, if we had it all, would we even want it all?  You can’t have it.  Choices have to be made.  Paths diverge in life and you have to take one or the other.  Getting lost in the wilderness between paths only leads to confusion and guilt.  You’re not really sure which path you belong on (or which one is more important) and running between the two leads to neither path being as fulfilling as it could and should have been.  I made my choice of which path to follow and I’ve never regretted it.  I’m doing what I wanted to do.

The opposite of “you can have it all” is the lie that “you can’t DO it all.”  Hmmm.  I’ve listened to that one.  That one has led me down the slow path to depression.  I felt so overwhelmed by everything I couldn’t do.  “You can’t homeschool your kids AND keep your house clean AND cook for your family, too.”  “Something has to give.”  “You have to take time for yourself and just let things go.”  “You can’t garden and raise animals and can and bake . . . . .”  And the list of “you can’ts” goes on and on.

And as the lie built inside of me, it started coming out of my mouth!

“I’m too tired.  I’ll do it later, tomorrow, never.”

“I just don’t have the energy.”

“I’m so tired of this.  I just want to be their Mom.”

“I can do school or I can be Mom . . . I can’t do both.”

Wait a minute!  Who says I can’t?  I’ve been so caught up believing the lie that “I can’t” that I quit even TRYING to do SOMETHING!  I gave in to lazy and undisciplined under the guise of “I can’t do everything.”

But I chose this life.  I desired this life.  I asked for this life.  Granted, I jumped into parenthood, homeschooling and hobby farming completely unprepared for reality, but it’s still what I want to do.  By buying the lie, I totally ignored the Source  of my strength.

“I can do all things through Christ who give me strength.” (Phil. 4:13)

“He who began a good work in you will complete it until the Day of Jesus Christ.” (Phil. 1:6)

“My God shall supply all your needs according to His riches in glory through Christ Jesus.” (Phil. 4:19)

HE called me to be a Mom.

HE called me to teach my children at home.

HE placed in my selfish heart the desire for the farm and the animals and a garden and orchard.

HE gave me the desire to feed my family well.

And if HE brought me to it, HE will see me through it.  HE will sustain me in my infirmity (tiredness, weakness and lack of energy).

My Source, my Strength, my Energy, my Life.  And He’s not a cosmic force watching from afar.  HE LOVES ME!  He’s right here beside me folding clothes, washing dishes, baking bread, readings books, sweeping floors and cleaning stalls!  I’m free in Him to be me and I can DO IT ALL because HE says I can.  “Whatsoever you do shall prosper.”  (Ps. 1:3b)  I have HIS word on it!

And yesterday I got the school done, the laundry started, the food cooked, the floor swept, the bread made and still had time to paint the chalkboards on the pantry door (DIMS Day!) and the energy for church in the evening!

It’s all in my perspective:  believing the lie or believing the truth.

And That’s What’s Reflecting on the Pond.

 

Just a Quickie

My Mom periodically sends me coupons in the mail that she has clipped from the local Sunday paper.   I have gotten dozens and dozens of notes over the years that started out, “Just a quickie . .  .” (usually trying to get the coupons to me before they expire!).  So, this morning I have “just a quickie” for ya.

Our rounds of college visits are over and now I have to convince her to go where I think she should instead of where her heart is set.  Oh yeah, it’s her life, Mom, not yours!  I have truly enjoyed and cherished the time spent with Karra on our cross-state tours.  The memories of sweltering and too long campus tours and the Sonic we shouldn’t have eaten, but did and regretted and then did again!!  For some reason she is more bothered by that foot long chili dog than I was – oh, was it good!!!  And all of the times we got lost – including yesterday WITH the Navi System!!  That was the machine’s fault because she told me to turn left at the second road but there was no FIRST road!!!  We just drove in circles on campus a couple of times before we got onto the right road and out of town.  I love that mechanism 🙂

Today I’m frantically trying to can peaches, make salsa, shred zucchini (and make bread to replace the two we gave away), freeze zucchini, feed some old summer squash to the chickens while I dream of fried summer squash to devour myself, try to decide whether to make more pickle relish or make sweet pickles with the cucumbers that Kurt isn’t devouring, cleaning and preparing for Life Group and trying not to kick myself for planning a trip to Michigan right when the tomatoes are ripe and we only have a handful of days left until school starts.  I think I’ll sleep the whole time at my Mom’s!

I did manage to get my carpet shampooed (and Lexi promptly re-soiled it two nights in a row) and have been working on two DIMS Day projects.  I have to finish my part of the pantry door, which translates into finding whatever I did with the blue painters tape, but Kristen’s part of the project turned out gorgeous.  It’s exactly what I wanted and I smile everytime I look at it.  The other project is gifts so it will have to wait until September to be posted – along with Karra’s bedroom curtain update that is taking much longer than expected.  Who would have thought that a valance could be so much trouble?

Well, my “quickie” has gotten long and I need to hit the treadmill – now in the basement where I can use it early in the morning without disturbing a sleeping husband.  I have a peach crisp in the oven and the pork loin in the crockpot simmering away into carnitas that will be barbecued for tonight’s Life Group – wish ya’ll could come and share the food and fellowship.

And That’s What’s Happening on the Hobby Farm!

College Visit

It wouldn’t be a college visit unless we got lost – but I had the new van with the Navi System so it didn’t matter!!!  And I’ve named the Navi System “Miss Flanagan” because every time she gave a directive I said “yes, ma’am”, but the sing-song in my head wanted to add something.  So, when I finally identified the sing-song as coming from Annie I had to name her Miss Flanagan.

We had a great time, liked the campus (the Rec Center almost lives up to the one at UC), and when we talked to the  department people Karra’s face lit up and she got excited.  Yes!  That’s what I want to do!!  So, we’ve decided to revisit UC to look at the their program in that field.

And the getting lost department?  Such tiny wrong turns we could have corrected them all by ourselves with out Miss Flanagan’s help. 🙂

Sadly, we couldn’t do our traditional stop at Sonic for burgers & shakes.  There are no Sonic drive-ins in NE Ohio!!! WAH!!  So, we ate at Cracker Barrel.  Karra had grilled rainbow trout and I had spicy grilled catfish.  We had steak fries and I had fried okra & Karra had healthy fruit.  And then we had apple dumpling ala mode with carmel pecan sauce. OH MY WORD!  We ate ourselves silly – and it was sooooo good!!!!  The nice gentleman at the next table tried to steal a bite (something my Dad would so do) and his wife had to chastise him.  I just laughed.  He was impressed that we demolished that dessert.  I HIGHLY recommend it – even after fish, fries & fried okra.  So, we walked around and looked at the gift shop for about 10 minutes then headed home.

5 minutes down the road – “Oh, this is bad.”

“What?  Are you sick?”

“I have to go the bathroom!!”

“Why didn’t you go before we left?  We walked around for 10 minutes and I used the restroom again.”

“I didn’t have to go.  I went before dessert.  Oh, this is bad!”

“I wonder where all of those potholes are we passed on the way up.”

“NO!  DON’T.  I’ll explode like the Indian Ocean!”

So, she tries to distract herself reading the information we gathered at the university visit and she’s reading the summer rec center information and you can rent kayaks and equipment for the weekend.  Hey, when the cousins come next week and we go kiyakaking  – and off we go into gales of laughter that didn’t help the girl with the Indian Ocean in her bladder.  Hehehehe.  And then we got stuck in 15 miles of construction that slowed us down and made it even worse and we’re coming up on our exit and she starts begging, “Mommy, please, please, stop!”  Feigning reluctance I turn off and pull into the BP station which she recognizes as a drop off point to meet the church van on it’s way to Elkhart.  I told her it was on the way so it was no big deal.  I Am So Awful!!!!

I have really enjoyed our visits to different colleges and the bonding time with my oldest child.  We don’t necessarily bond over food, but today was extremely enjoyable.  We’ve had such good laughs and been able to really talk about things we wouldn’t talk about at home.  She really is a level headed kid and she’s going to do very well at college.

And That was a Homeschool Adventure off the Hobby Farm.

My Baby Grew Up

We left Karra at University for a week long Architecture Camp.  A dorm room, room mate, and a cafeteria swipe card.  And two hours from home – all on her own.  It’s not like this is her first time away from us.  She’s gone to summer camp with the church youth group – 8 hours and a state away – but somehow this feels much, much different.

Like every other mother before me, I wonder where my cherub cheeked little child went.  How did this happen so fast?  She’s only really mine for another year – so much to do and so much to say.

Of course, taking her to camp didn’t come without its adventures – it wouldn’t be us if we didn’t mess something up, right?  So, I decided that rather than head east, then south, then west to take the highway to our destination, we would take the smaller state road close to us and go due south until we hit the big highway.  Except an hour lateron the scenic route we still hadn’t hit that big highway.  We stopped at a gas station near a different university to ask how we get to that big highway.  Well, we had to backtrack to the east about 15 miles to get to the right place to hit the big highway and take off on our way.  Joel had been bragging about his 80 mph tires and then he got to prove how good they were.  We got to our destination about an hour later than planned, but we had allowed plenty of time, so it was no big deal – and Karra beat her roommate in so she got her pick of beds. 🙂

And there was the drama of “where in the world do we turn into the university?  are we on the right street?  tell me where I’m going!!!”  Um, Honey, your lane ends.  Um, honey, there’s a parked car in front of you!  Why didn’t we drive the new van with the Navi system?

We got checked in (to discover everything had her named spelled Karrat , well it sort of suits a vegetarian don’t you think?), settled in the dorm and then navigated the map to get across campus to the art building.  It was really hot and humid and I started to come unglued a bit – not in a bad way, in a melting way.  I also got really thirsty because sweet tea just doesn’t cut it like water does (and by the way when your husband wants Quarter Pounders buy one get one for 1 cent – let him and then order the bacon chicken wrap that you wanted in the first place.  Otherwise you order two quarter pounders – reg., two quarter pounders with no cheese, no pickles, no onions, just ketchup & mustard, and two quarter pounders with no pickles, cheese, onions, only ketchup.  Yep.  And then when you’re praying over your food while you open your burger box it goes like this, “Thank you, God, for this food and all of your blessings and the cheese on my Quarter Pounder.”  Uh, huh, just order the bacon chicken wrap! and a water).

After the welcome and orientation, we went on the tour of the art building – with a tour guide that didn’t wait for the whole group to catch up to the destination before beginning his speal.  So, Joel gives his own tour – he is so full of it!

We left her, finally, and promptly got lost trying to get back to the highway.

And That’s What’s Happening on the Hobby Farm 🙂

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